It will be a bad Friday to see you cold-  not much more than a week ago- we spoke. You laughed and drove my boy  to the game- you were so very alive-helping me-  as I dealt with doctors and knives. You brought sweets, though I still can’t eat –   Your son could do no wrong in your …

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Accident- When you see one who once long hated you, still does- and only helps you out of legal obligation   quid pro quo- not of goodness, or swelling heart. now in torment themselves- broken injured, sick, staph infected,weak.. bones removed,  though he can still make a fist. Is it my mercy that makes him now  meek?  Which …

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 70’s New and Unimproved Hell Mall   They graze, material appetites to sate and once-over the mama gringa with White-Flesh-Hate    Striped hair wannabe celebrities , fake cholo-ghetto baggy pants’d boys with no identity. Headless mannequins flaunt fabrics cheaply made, unmatching, piecemeal. Roths-Teen-TV anorexicwear that caters to the UnReal.  Tables of Junk stacked on display.  Stuffed animals. Pokemon. Disney. Anime.    …

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Stake (written 10/31/07 ,dedicated to the witch burning victims) This can’t be happening. (Oh, but it is, it most certainly is) She did fight them- Bruised wrists, rope wrapped, bleeding- She knows this one too well, knows his eyes, he remembers the other things he took from her Satisfaction glints – a dead glee. The hood hides …

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Close to the surface and in too deep.  sink swim sink swim Pacing myself  Holding my breath, in place. Suspended animation Oh how I want that sleep. ~ Did I love more than I was hated? If I could only undo this, but I’m wound too tight. The Road to Hell  It is paved with good intentions- …

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  When the pain outweighs the fear Dies Irae- more tired than afraid. Cold sobriety of plain prayer, Is there anyone here? Baptism by fire , Into Hell I trespassed, yet even the wicked must rest, at last.          I plead for faith to be restored, resurrected . The crown is heavier than expected.

I  will be  as  opaque as  milk glass,     to your one- dimensional   counter- clockwise  Moebius  Band- flat, non-orientable  to any surface . 255 255 255 We are progress,  sphere-  wheel,    movement. DNA double helix  Stairway of  Ascension   We are evolution. Expect revolution.                            Agent of contagion, Opportunistic , Viral, Malignant-          unoriginal at the cellular level. …

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Dad, it was my mistake to think he would be like you, just because he wasn’t my usual type. You loved me since I was born. Maybe he never did. and now? Feel like a thief who can no longer steal nursing wounds that do not heal. Dressed in black yet still a bride. and …

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Channon. Chris.Thinking of this Must open the window I feel the retching asphyxia of one who knows they were told a lie. Here, at the very end of the earth- It is still safe in one’s car… to cry. “Don’t look” says the boy. “close your eyes!” (in this part of the loop) she also …

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Was he a soldier or spectre? a vessel in troubled seas? like a sweet child without responsibilities, he appeared to me. Father,can you absolve me, please though I will not repent- nor weep for him, only for me. I’ve been brought to my knees there’s no dignity in this grief. The wound is deep though …

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Here all is salt water Iron becomes rust Fire burns hot blood runs thick I stood by the rails, the sea to soothe me The sky full of light of stars, the moon cast shadows rain in my eyelashes I knew then who had captured me Electricity surrounded me My hair bound back like a …

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He has summoned me agian never fails,he likes routine. Shall I sing a song I ask.. Shall we dance? I do nothing, still he is entertained. Tap. Tap. Tap. go his boots- then his cigarette. He tells me things, though I never ask. He says “why not? people know we are together anyway”.. What part …

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